excerpts from notes on my life

  • Protected: Chapter 1

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  • The Waters of Memory

    As I wade in slowly, I feel a sensation like never before. The coldness feels like shards of glass against my shins, my calves. From the inside, the pain reacts in pins and needles, and alertness. There is an intense fear, a fear that is always there only now it comes quickly to the forefront… Read more

  • Planning Ahead

    Fucking Lover’s Rock, Sade. Just when I thought I’d cleared you out of my head. The Universe prevails, looping me back in just as I open myself back up to write. Such a slow track, it fades out, almost taking me out with it, lulling me back into a haze of sleep. The couple sitting… Read more

  • Dive Right In

    Well, it looks like I’m just going to diver right back fucking into this, headfirst, long and smooth, hair flowing behind me, gliding through the water, pausing in the silky, soft flow of the water behind me as I slither through it. In this long moment, it is just the water and no air, and… Read more

  • Worn Out

    Day 10, or something. Upon counting I realise that I am, in fact, correct. 5 more days of being here, and then one of travel and then boom, I am back in my other life. It’s a shock to the system, as always. I was hoping that this time it would be less though, having… Read more

  • The Englishman

    Right now I am living the 90/10/90 rule. It is a theory that for any project, 90% of the work takes 90% if the of time. Then the final 10%, even though you think it would be relatively easy, demanding the remaining 10% of effort. When in fact, that last bit takes as much effort,… Read more