Notes on My Life

excerpts from notes on my life

  • Pain Leaving the Body

    There once was a quote, mostly popular with the go-hard rage-through-it types that was something like ‘blank’ is just pain leaving the body. I used to be able to quote this at anytime but now, it is inaccessible. I might say that this is due to my forgetfulness, or my memory fog, but perhaps this… Read more

  • Under the California Sun

    Here I am, in my American home. Between the forest and the sea, I am siting in my local coffee shop, as I always have. Listening to Radiohead, holding back tears. Is this heaven or a dream? Certainly it can’t be real. Time is compressing – the eras smashed into the now, through the taste… Read more

  • Layover

    Time is a gift, especially when it feels like extra time. In a time when we are so unaccustomed to delaying any gratification, an unexpected delay can feel like an ocean of time in front of us. Nowhere to go, no place to be, forced to sit still and just be for a short time…… Read more

  • A Line in the Sand

    It has been so long since I have written that I feel that I owe even myself an explanation. I have none, other than I have been focusing on myself in other ways, in the rehabilitation of myself through learning to care for myself, finally. Once I realised just how little I knew of the… Read more

  • Bloodline

    This show. I tried to stop watching, but between curiosity and the boredom of covid exhaustion, I returned. The theme, the theme that I am interested in as of late, is that of being ruled by past decisions, past events, and how these decisions replay themselves in our heads, how the replays create the present… Read more

  • Protected: Begin with the End in Mind

    There is no excerpt because this is a protected post. Read more