Two months sober today, and I’ve woken up at 1:35 in the afternoon. Well, woke up the 2nd or 3rd time. First was to get the kids up for school, second was at 11:30. This time though, I woke myself with the decisive, concerted effort of all of the strength that you can summon after… Read more

It’s much talked about these days, but I still wonder if anyone outside the motherhood really understands. My cousin, Sonya, is at least 10 years older than me. I don’t remember the difference exactly, as I established her as ‘much older’ when I was a child, when even months felt like a huge difference in… Read more

It’s Friday night and finally everyone is in bed, myself included. Lately it’s only when I slow down that the pain arrives, which is usually at night. I am terrified that it is an indicator of something serious. Secretly, a small part of me hopes that it is, so that at least then I will… Read more